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Since I was a little girl I have loved to dance. Since I was a little girl I have been heavier than the rest. Since I was a little girl I have been striving to be wanted. Since I was a little girl I have wanted and needed a true friend. 

“I feel so strongly that deep and simple is far more essential than shallow and complex.”
Fred Rogers

Along some lines all of these things coincide until I met HIM! He who told me in Philippians 4:13 English Standard Version, " I can do all things through HIM who strengthens me." So it didn't matter that I was bigger, I could dance.

God's gifts put man's best dreams to shame.  ~Elizabeth Barrett Browning

I was too small ( physically, mentally, and spiritually) to truly grasp what I was getting my self into when I felt God move into my heart. My grandmother kept praying with me and wanted to make sure I was in the right place before I went up front to be baptized, and you know what I am glad that it was in Gods timing and not ours because shortly after my baptism my grandmother moved away and could no longer drive me to church- so I WALKED. I knew that Christ wanted me and my true friends. Psalms 18:2 says, " The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."  I had wanted someone for so long and I found Him, but being again too small I would still seek the approval of the world through most of college ( yes a long journey from being a 5th grader to college but hey I am a girl and boys were cute- and you know what it makes my story better : ) 

“Never underestimate Jesus, because He will just prove you wrong.”
Brian Gurney

We all have dreams but ultimately I knew God was going to use my gifts( that he graced me with) and heart. I have always been a worker bee and that quality has not changed. I knew I was never going to be rich, then I married a minister and guaranteed I would never be rich : ) ( and the crowd giggled ) today I say that I am happier than I have been, and I am thankful for what God gives me, not what I dont have. 

“The power of God will take you out of your own plans and put you into the plan of God.”
Smith Wigglesworth 

I have a job that I love that includes dance and cheer, currently share a car with my husband and live in an apartment the size of my dorm at OBU but you know what? Its Gods plan and who am I to try and change it? I have a life, I am wanted and I have a true friend in Christ, and he brought me my best friend Curtis. I sometimes wish about having a girl best friend that I can shop with or a life long best friend but thats just not in Gods plan right now ;)

 “Heaven is full of answers to prayers for which no one ever bothered to ask.”
Billy Graham

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