HurriedPatience

Closing out a year is normally filled excitement and anticipation for all of the amazing things that are filling my calendar for that year but as you know- 2020. One major heart break that I had was the cancellation of my trip to Ghana, which really did not close down til about a month before take off. The nature of my choice of word was based on that trip- EXPLORE .  How we explored in 2020: Family walks on every square inch of the San Antonio River- Mission Reach trails.  Daily walks around our apartment complex Potty training-- enough said The ways to stream church services  How to do "camp at church" Sea World and Zoo season passes  Career as a virtual admin and project manager Over all-- not the distant explorations that I was expecting to take, but still explored "home".  Thinking about how I want to frame the next year, really had me perplexed on a word choice. I have not lost hope, I live each day through my almost three year olds eyes. 2020 was not a br...

Today at lunch we were discussing sweet old ladies who enjoy going to casinos. These ladies will share about their wins, but never bring up how much money they have lost in the process. This is kind of like my addiction to contests- I have never kept track of how many I have entered, but love the thrill of the win. Reverse this, and this is where many of us live. We as humans sit at home and focus on the things we see on social media that we or our children are not doing. I know that at home I have been struggling with the fact that I stay at home and my house isn't put together. I see post after post of peoples seasonal switch outs and amazing recipe creations. I see the perfectly planned and executed birthday parties or family portraits. I struggled with these things before motherhood, but I think motherhood has magnified it. I have struggled with not having perfect newborn pics, or that we didn't get enough photos at the hospital. I have struggled with the fact that I di...