Life: 2019 Word

Last years word took a different turn than I was expecting ( check out my blog from 12/21/2018). When I thought of what 2019 would look like, I knew that it was going to be an adventure.
So for 2019 my word is: Why I chose this word:

I am still learning about the area we relocated to in 2018 shortly after the birth of our son.Watching my son discover things for the first time is like discovering it for the first time myself. Entering into the 11th year of marriage with my husband, and there is still much to discover together. I want discover new things in the Word this year, I am starting that by doing a Chronological reading through the bible this year. After turning 30 this year, there is still so much more for me to discover about myself. Including but not limited to taking a few personality tests (I am looking at you Enneagram) and spiritual gifts analysis. Some of what I have realized is that not being in a specific field at the time being, m…

Life: Recap Word of Year


I chose the word reliance for 2018 because I was expecting a child and knew that delivery was going to be a c-section. I knew that I am a pack mule and do things all by myself but that post surgery and adding a new little body to the mix. I was trying to give myself the goal of leaning on others, but did I do it well?

Reliance took a few different turns in 2019.

Jan 15: C-Section
     I knew that day I had to rely on those around me because I was not going to be able to do much. I had fear walking into the delivery room because I was about to have a major surgery and major life change all at once. I relied on God to keep myself and the baby safe through the surgery, and to keep John from feeling overwhelmed. I relied on my doctors and the nurses advice during the whole process.
The funny thing was that I tried to call the nurses to go the the bathroom as told, and they said if I felt comfortable I could go on my own- haha! What came out of reliance in the hospital was that I …

Life: The Last Decade

I am sitting in front of my computer and trying to process through what I have to say about the past decade. I have had a tearful start to the mornings of this past week as I have tried to do the same. 2017-2018 I have had a struggle with the coming of October 11. The best way to track a decade is start at the beginning.

2008 age 20
     I was a sophomore in college at Oklahoma Baptist University. My roommate and some of our suitemates blindfolded me ( which lead to me falling asleep) enroute to a place I had talked about so highly from when I was touring colleges- POPS 66 Soda Ranch! The thing is that these girls had never been there and it took WAYY longer than it should have to get there but it was soo much fun introducing them to POPS. That weekend I headed to San Antonio with my fiance to get our engagement photos. 

     I got married during my 20th year to the love of my life. We planned our entire wedding in 6 days after I caught the bouquet at his cousins wedding on January 3. …

Life: The Gamble and Win

Today at lunch we were discussing sweet old ladies who enjoy going to casinos. These ladies will share about their wins, but never bring up how much money they have lost in the process. This is kind of like my addiction to contests- I have never kept track of how many I have entered, but love the thrill of the win.

Reverse this, and this is where many of us live. We as humans sit at home and focus on the things we see on social media that we or our children are not doing. I know that at home I have been struggling with the fact that I stay at home and my house isn't put together. I see post after post of peoples seasonal switch outs and amazing recipe creations. I see the perfectly planned and executed birthday parties or family portraits.

I struggled with these things before motherhood, but I think motherhood has magnified it. I have struggled with not having perfect newborn pics, or that we didn't get enough photos at the hospital. I have struggled with the fact that I didn&…

Life: Seven Months

Today my small fry turns seven months old, and its the first time I am sitting down the blog again. 
For someone who loves to write, it has felt a bit odd- however its not like I have just been sitting over here eating bon bons for seven months. Since I last blogged:

January 15th our family grew by two perfect feet, and ten sweet toes. First week in February John flew out the a church interview in VirginiaFirst week in March we trekked across America with our cat and our seven week old and moved to said church in VirginiaMarch and April we were settling into our house and parenthoodApril and May we were getting all of the summer youth and childrens ministry plans laid outJune and July we basically lived at the church as we put on VBS then took the students ( and our 5 month old) to camp at Liberty UniversityEnd of July, my mother and niece came for a visit and to meet our little guy And now somehow we are in mid August and I haven't written since January 1st. I have entered a new s…

Life: Word of 2018

I don’t lean well. I don't sit well. I don't slow well.  I am a power through girl- things are going to get done, no matter what. 
BUT... this year (2018) has to look a little different.
2018 will bring 32 years for hubs (Jan 7)9 years of marriage (Jan 9)30 years of age ( Oct 11)OH YEAH! and a baby no later than January 15th. 
While it was hard to swallow not having a natural birth, we have a very breech baby and will be having a c-section on Jan 15th at the latest- you know because babies sometimes don't like being told when their birthdays will be and decide to bust down the water wall. So we shall see when BABY H will join our rankings within the next two weeks. 
BECAUSE of all of this...
I have considered a few different words to represent my goal in 2018. The first word that came to mind was slow- again if you know me, or have read any of my blogs = I don' t slow well, I am a get up and go girl. I think that there will have to be large doses of slow, especially in t…

Life: What 8 Months Can Do

If you are a follower of my blog, you may remember a little posty poo I wrote back in April titled, "Life: Adoption, Foster Care and Us" (if not check it out) which was the first time I was sharing publicly that I was okay if we never had biological children and a peek into my giant bleeding heart for foster and adoption. Well little did I know that only one month later I would be sitting in a doctor's office being told, " Congratulations, no antibiotics for you- you are pregnant.

Ecclesiastes 3:1, "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens."

Why do I ever think I know what God is planning and timing is for my life? God continues to remind this planner obsessed girl that His clock knows better than mine. I have had to lean on that more than anything 8 months after that blog. My husband and I are still praying/seeking/interviewing for guidance on where God has laid out for us next in ministry, and currently will be bri…