HurriedPatience

Where can I find a smile? I know now days you can find a mustache for sale, but can I find a smile for sale?

These lyrics basically sum up whats going on. "Every day is so wonderful then suddenly its hard to breath Now and then, I get insecure From all the pain, I'm so ashamed" I am working on getting to this part: "I am beautiful no matter what they say Words can't bring me down I am beautiful in every single way Yes Words can't bring me down" I want to tell people this: "so don't you bring me down, today." I know God is in control, but God knows that I feel this way. Even Jesus wept and was angry. So many people tell me that I need to give it to God and be happy- and if you know me I am rarely down. I think that is the biggest lesson I have taken out of this year, I can have emotion and be upset especially because I am a Christian. So I am going to belt out loud music to God ...

Yesterday I had the most awesome work- out, but I can not talk about it out loud because some people think it is not right. I did yoga, and received awesome compliments about form and my amazing spine. I was able to get an amazing stretch and focus on me : ) which is something I do not do very often. When I run, I worry about the people around me and the form of my feet. When I dance/yoga/swim there is nothing to think about but what I am doing. Do not get me wrong, I am still going to run- but it is good to vary up workouts. With that said, I am sore today and it makes me think about the lack of stretching I do- EVER. I

Well I think that typing this right now may be seen as hypocritical, but in a world of school and work- this may be the only way to work through my thoughts daily. I have given up social media for Lent: no more Facebook, Twitter and Pintrest along with no more cheese until after Easter. I am going to take these spare moments to study on my CLEP exams for Biology and Western Civ along with my other three courses I am taking to graduate in May. Please be praying for me during these last three and a half months of school. better go so I am not making this my status update central : ) A

Changes changes all around. Changes changes are abound Not sure if that completely made sense but I am guessing you know what it is referencing. I am enjoying getting to spend time in my learning environments. I am taking mornings to focus on my schooling and making sure CHFBS events are being covered the best that they can. This means I am not living a big lavish life on two part-time incomes but I am feeling better about it then I was before. I am going through one of those stages in life that I realize you can not always be close to everyone or please everyone. There is a day when you have to live for God and yourself and not the world any more. I do not know if the people around me realize it, but it is happening. Snow White is calling on one of my open tabs : )