I can not get this song out of me

These lyrics basically sum up whats going on.

"Every day is so wonderful
then suddenly its hard to breath
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed"

I am working on getting to this part:
"I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes Words can't bring me down"

I want to tell people this: "so don't you bring me down, today."

I know God is in control, but God knows that I feel this way. Even Jesus wept and was angry. So many people tell me that I need to give it to God and be happy- and if you know me I am rarely down. I think that is the biggest lesson I have taken out of this year, I can have emotion and be upset especially because I am a Christian.

So I am going to belt out loud music to God ...

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