harder and harder to breathe

Oh Maroon 5, how you help me breath though it gets harder and harder to breathe. I have decided that since I dont know what is going to happen I am going to make my list. The list of things I want to accomplish in life- so here it is

be a bridesmaid in a wedding. my wedding was rushed( yes by choice) and didn't get to help plan or pamper : )
run a half marathon
own my own car
adopt a child
write a book
NYC
Travel to England to see/meet my family
Snow Ski
Own Cowgirl Boots
Buy something at Lululemon
do a mini- Triathalon
Be on a council/ run for an office
be a fiesta/event royalty

this is not the end, but i feel like talking about what I want is limiting what God wants and I cry either way. I wish a dog(me) could get a bone(a morsel of hope of a future from God).... because its hard to push forward when the circle closes in around me.

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