HurriedPatience

if I had no limitations on what I could do, or where I could live in no particular order ( so far) live: Dallas Austin New York Seattle Colorado career: photojournalism( photograph events and write peoples stories in books- for them) Vera Bradley Rep work with an organization that does missionary work as well as business travel leisurely: England Africa Greece Paris Russia own: iMac my very own car

Things I have had waved in my face and had ripped away: A car (twice) A dog(twice) A trip to Alaska A trip to Hawaii A trip to England A baby A job after 7 interviews LASIk Braces A camera College Graduation An apartment Friendship I know God won't push us past out limit but I don't think he built a limit on me, I just keep rolling in the deep. I call give :/

4th grade my grandma that took me go church moved far away. In 5th grade- I got left behind in Texas by my mom. In eighth grade I got left alone at a talent show I was in with no one there to support me. the only constant has been God. But as I sit here I wonder what the longest drought someone has gone though without a clue as of what is going on. I think I have been here since 2009. I know he is working but my tear ducts keep flowing.I'm going to find a paddle for my river. Don't feel sorry for me, or doubt my faith. I still believe and proclaim HE is alive and well and working hard on my path, and it must have ALOT of grooves because it Is taking time. So if u see me, just give me a hug because I dont know if there are words to fix this . Soo until that hug :)

Oh Maroon 5, how you help me breath though it gets harder and harder to breathe. I have decided that since I dont know what is going to happen I am going to make my list. The list of things I want to accomplish in life- so here it is be a bridesmaid in a wedding. my wedding was rushed( yes by choice) and didn't get to help plan or pamper : ) run a half marathon own my own car  adopt a child write a book  NYC Travel to England to see/meet my family Snow Ski Own Cowgirl Boots Buy something at Lululemon do a mini- Triathalon Be on a council/ run for an office be a fiesta/event royalty  this is not the end, but i feel like talking about what I want is limiting what God wants and I cry either way. I wish a dog(me) could get a bone(a morsel of hope of a future from God).... because its hard to push forward when the circle closes in around me. 

over the weekend, I had a little bit of a binge on junk food. Being at "Fiesta" Fest you kind of feel like you have to partake in "fiesta" foods : ) cotton candy, funnel cake, pancakes ( my school was trying to win the record for most pancakes flipped at an event- of course I could have done worse if I ate meat. Then I came home to CRASH really hard- walking around all day made me really sleepy. I woke up hungry and for some reason we decided pizza sounded AWESOME. We had not eaten pizza since February when we gave up cheese for lent. Jalapenos, Pineapple and Mushrooms was awesome. Then Sunday I held an event at church and made some yummy dips, and not very many people showed up so I ended up eating some of that. With all that said, I was pleasantly surprised to see a three pound loss on the scale Monday morning. Then I realized that I had worked out more last week than any other time before. Since I am a part of the running classes, I am following my homework gu...

I received kind words the other day after my social media rant, and of that I am very thankful. What I realized when this happened is that I am not used to true encouragement. I sought it much growing up but there was always a catch to the "advice". I am looking back and seeing that I over came a lot of obstacles, but know that I would not be the person that I am right now without jumping these hurdles now if only I had long enough legs to jump track hurdles : ) I would not take back the hurt I have seen/felt/kicked in the face. I know I grumble when something goes bad, but two days later I realize that I have grown ( I think I may be a 40 year old mom in a 23 year old body). My students( though they do not always respect me as so) will constantly refer to me as 28 and 30, and a co- worker decided it is because I am married ( she is not and is that age and they all think she is my age).  I am proud to be young and married and be seen as OLD Sorry for the rambling... I ...

I just finished the movie "As We Forgive" ( which I highly recommend to anyone thinking about missions, or who loves seeing how Christ can change any situation) and realized that I have absolutely no reason to think I have it the worst. I know that we all go through trials, and the ladies in this movie had to see their families be murdered in the genocides of Rwanda, but in Gods eyes none are more important that the other- there is equality in his love and comfort. If these ladies can forgive a murderer and even become their next door neighbor then we can forgive the person that has made us fret, that has left us behind in another state, that flicked us off because we were going the speed limit. next up, Sometimes in April and Hotel Rwanda : ) (I love taking African Ethnology)